I want to give up

Treading water

Photo by Becca Murray

I’ll be totally upfront with you, dear reader. Most days, I don’t know what I’m doing.

Greetings from the dark side of my brain, RDG Readers.

Often when people ask me how I am doing, I say it feels like, “I’m treading water on a gorgeous day.”

I see all the splendor around me like anyone given a second chance on life, but it sure isn’t easy lately.

I spend a ton of time, busy all day in the mix of my lengthy to-dos, and then as the sun sets, I ask myself if I’ve done enough today? Am I anywhere closer to my goals? Am I making the kind of progress that soothes my restless spirit?

Despite my relentless efforts, hard work, and all my tactics for mental health, I can easily get sucked into a dark riptide.

Like today.